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Production..

2012-02-25T16:44:00.001+08:00

Argh! Its reaching! So little time, so much work to do. Only Did eff com draft 1 today. But i planned to finish marketing and env lectures too.. Sian.. Always behind my own schedule. The work seems so little yet time consuming.. Maths quiz coming up soon and i haven study for that. How?? Roar. Can only memorise the steps and methods for now since jas went home, no one to ask.. Maths aint the scary mod, thermo is.. Our lecturer like to give us veey challenging questions and never really explain how to do. . . . Will die. Must really sit down in front of my textbook and try to understand every single part. Chap 3 still not so bad cause i studied it in poly. Chap 4 is crazy! How to do!?!?!?
:(

Still needa settle lots of admin stuffs here and there.. And some idiot dont wan to meet me today . Heh.
AjcjehckznqnxbxnAj

2011-12-30T01:39:00.003+08:00

i realised, i like to ignore everyone when im feeling down. =)
so sorry guys, idk if its emo period, pms or just wanted to slack/mia for a few days.

nua too much recently, so much things to catch up and so much things to sell! argh! canvassing, canvassing.. =(

anyone interested to buy my CNY goodies (pineapple tarts, almond cookies, love letter.. the stick biscuit, or choco cornflakes).. or xiang wei bah kwa. =D PLEASEEE~ cheap cheap only. freshness guaranteed. =D

=(
and so bored in hall without roomies and without friends. haiz. always see seniors tgt, always see sports team tgt.. my team? no team ㅋㅋ. =(
boring~~
boring will die!

No confidence

2011-12-28T18:09:00.001+08:00

Why no one realised im actually very shy?? Or did i hide it too well??

Haiz.. Idk how? Haiz.. Sports. :(
Camp. :(
Outings :(
People. :'(

Something wrong w my speech recently.. Or its always like this?? :(
Why my english so cui. :( dying soon~~ :(

After exams

2011-12-11T15:04:00.001+08:00

Finally I'm home! :)
After 3weeks? 4weeks? I don't rmb. :p
So nice to be home, with great food, home made lime juice, fruits and my bed!
Went for wedding dinner yest with my family. So much fun~ played, mess around with seniors and waiters. Wahaha.. That twins are always so cute and entertaining..
Watched eclipse in e middle of nowhere, (right outside e hotel). Take photos like some idiot discover UFO. XD

Always having fun~

Wake up early and daddy offer to cook fried rice. Mummy went in to supervise while I watch tv. :)
Then mummy told me a joke, daddy added sugar into my fried rice!!
Who added sugar to fried rice!? It's always salt! Daddy accuse mummy for putting sugar in the salt container. Mummy say it's been there for ages and u didn't realize?

Now I wonder if my dad always add sugar to all e dishes? So scary to taste it again..

After exams

2011-12-11T15:03:00.001+08:00

Busy hols

2011-12-07T19:22:00.001+08:00

I'm so glad that I'm in hall prod.. From overseas trip, u can feel that we are actually quite bonded.. Lots of fun and effort put in..
Thou seniors always, only wan us to drink (-.-"), they have reasons behind. It's always good to stay bonded. :)

Good job guys.. :)

Actual work starts now. Just ended my meeting this afternoon and my portfolio is gonna start working~ omg.. That's sp much things to take note, so much to do.. Spencer, please don't snatch all e jobs, spare some for me.. Hehe..
My boss is a workaholic!

Hmm.. Holidays are no longer holidays. Can't be used for work .. I need a tutee.. :(

Hall is filled w mysteries and surprises

2011-11-29T01:55:00.001+08:00

:( confused. Who should I trust and who should I not? The situation is so complex?? Why must I trust him in doing so, and why should I interpret further? It might be a simple gesture and I read too much into it. It can also be the others reading too much and trying to understand his motives behind every small little actions made.
It's so confusing now. I'm not sure where should I land. Where should I make my stand and when I should really speak up.
People, life is filled w mistakes, speculation and surprises. Hope i did not trust e wrong person and give e wrong comment. It's always based on personal experience and self enlightenment. ㅋㅋㅋ.. I know that sounds so.. Like a monk. Zzz. It's ok! Wahaha.

2011-11-27T04:10:00.000+08:00

argh! idk how to study for MIC!! no time for it... so dead, so dead.. =(

needa research and print lots of nonsense, but i dont even have time to go home and press all nonsense out.. argh!

梁雯意最近神经失调。

2011-10-18T03:35:00.002+08:00

1。莫名其妙，一直笑。
2。半夜三惊不睡觉。
3。一直大喊大叫。

简称神经病。

Due to one pear

2011-10-03T16:26:00.001+08:00

Just now I grab a fragrant pear on my way to econs lecture. Den nearby can 2 I found 3blzck holes in e pear and used my nails to dig them out and throw it on e nearby grass patch. Yong Jun saw me. -.-" he ask me not to litter.. :( so embarrassing..

Ok.. Nvm, I need to take bus. When I just reach e bus stop o saw my bus coming!! Just one turn. One turn! Argh! My pear! Halfway done.. Zzz... Eeat! Eat eat.. Haha.. My mouth super full.. Den I cover my mouth and keep chewing on my way up e bus. -.-" the bus driver smile at me, no, laugh at me. Argh.. So embarrassing. And he keeps looking at e rear mirror, where wth! I can see him! He's looking at me chewing. And he keeps looking!! He's laughing!! Wth!! Must find a hole to hide. :'(

2011-09-15T10:23:00.002+08:00

头脑坏，头脑坏死了！

idk whay im doing recently, halfhearted. no mood... keep mumbling as if i have mental problem..
cant study MIC, wanted to start on bio but feel so guilty. cant do this or that, in bad mood, not being able to memorise all things on text not being able to study well despite all the time i have.

lousy. theres so much things to do, this week? last week? no excuses. if i cant do it, means i dont wan to do it. just carry on ... its useless.. i need retail therapy.. retail therapy!!

精神支柱

2011-09-13T17:54:00.001+08:00

当心情烦躁，需要冷静时，就会找点东西吃。但暴饮暴食不是件好事。
我要疯了，太多东西做。不要谌强。要冷静。
一切一平常心对待，开心就好。
目标达到就好。
其他的不重要。。

梁雯意加油！

ACP interview

2011-09-07T17:13:00.002+08:00

omg its so embarrassing!!

francis called just now around 5pm,

F: eh u having tuition now arh
ME: no eh... tuition cancelled
F: FUCK YOU la! ask u come meeting u say cannot ite tuition cancelled
ME: huh... last mine cancel de.. by e student
F: oh ok.. student cancel arh, den u be acp station games ok huh
ME: orh ok..
F: eh.. station games acp need alot of programmer leh, not enough u have to do urself, better find your kanza ppl
ME: ok..
F: err.. den we are having on monday 7.30
ME: huh!? AM ARH!?!?!
F: huh am?
ME: AM ARH!?!? CAN I DONT GO?
F: eh.. use ur brain leh, PM la.. eh u dont blur leh, my co-cp listening now leh, its phone interview
ME: HUH!?!? *PAISEI*
F: what u doing now?
ME: orh.. sleeping
F; eh u dont sleep leh listen listen..
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SUPER CUI!! SUPER SUPER CUI!!
argh!
its an interview leh.. and i just wake up, by right it should be my power nap, as in just one hr...
but my alarm clock never ring leh.. set wrong timing!! set 230am! wth!! den i just sleep all e way till now, 被吓醒！
zzz...
zzz..
没脸见人了。。

2011-09-07T04:00:00.002+08:00

i think theres something wrong with me, or my lifestyle?

i just cant sleep at night especially at this timing.. weird weird right? just came back from supper after cheerleading training den wanna really sleep before i step into my room.. but once i stepped in brush teeth, wash up all these, i felt the need to do homework that's piled up on my desk.

serioiusly huh.. i purposely leave it there so that i will rmb to finish it up, but ite, i just.. too disciplined. =.=

argh! gonna do it all now and its like 4am, gonna wake up by 830 to go for lab.. should i sleep now cause its lab, an impt session.. but i just felt guilty not finishing my econs =( and bio =((

horrible me. media in china is another to be done, cry

SICK~ =(

2011-08-28T18:22:00.002+08:00

i hate this feeling. giddy, headache, blur blur..

went to the nearest doc after my tuition at 853. found it by luck =)
no1 queuing. =)

the clinic is very unique! doc came from UK, was a lawyer, looks refined.
everything inside looks like antique. huge post box, typewriter, lots of old bookshelves, and 2 fat cats.
luckily they are too fat to move around, if not i will die. -.-''

at 1st my cousin alr told me its $38, so i presume i had enough money for it ($45)
den just now a indian nurse say its $48. cry.. no money.. have to walk all e way back to city harvest to withdraw..
(the clinic has 3 nurse: chinese, malay and indian)
den i feel very sick.. headache and nose block, so my tears are coming out when i returned =P
the malay nurse tot i cried.. zzz.
ok, need to pay up so i asked them abt the price. the malay nurse says $38.
=.=''
so i walked for nothing.

Sprain after 3weeks

2011-08-26T12:36:00.001+08:00

Went Ntu tcm to look for a physician. She wanted to apply Acupuncture, I gave a stunned face. Haha. Den she suggested applying medicine. :) not bad..
Even though she's a senior physician, acupuncture to her would be the fastest way for recovery..
But no no. I think I will die half way looking at e needles.. Zzz

Home

2011-08-23T15:57:00.001+08:00

Went home. Forgot my slippers and I really can't live without it. Printed notes, forget to bring.. Ate dongfen, happy :)
Super sleepy and bored.. :( I guess I'm lovesick.
And I forgot my keys and notes! Zzz

2011-08-22T03:00:00.001+08:00

there must be something wrong with me

Sad uni life

2011-08-19T00:28:00.001+08:00

Poor student like me without a job have to be thrifty. Haiz.. Went zh house baked a failed product and have to survive w it.. What's worst is e failed product made me missed my last bus home.. Thou Ntu is just next to zh house, the in btw journey is horrendous! So dark, so scary and full of unknown substances.
Life's no good in Ntu. Is either u don't move, get stuck in there, or move around and cab home. ( I'm broke, I can't cab, sad)

Durian hiking

2011-07-26T06:03:00.001+08:00

Finally I got e chance to hunt durian w my dad this year.. Waited so long for this chance!!
We head out to lim chu kana area during midnight, drive around to find a good spot, hunt for awhile found nothing and then returned to e place they always look for good species... We waited.. From 130 till late... In btw, we lighted candles, set campfire, to chase mosquitoes away, and set down on newspapers. :) it's a "designated" area for durian hunters. :)
We searched e area 1st and found close to 5. Den we slowly, go into details.... Boom! A durian dropped right in front of me! Omg!! So scary.. Found a good one, daddy said. :) after that, we rest, awaiting their so called rare species to drop.

Wait and wait, after one hr nothing happened, near 3am, no sound at all...
And BOOM!! Right behind my head! Boom boom boom!! 4durians dropped at e same time and one roll out.. It's like one step behind me! So scary!! 4 at a time!

Some people waited ages, others like us, picked it base on pure luck.

On our way out, we walked towards a really old huge tree, and daddy says this area, there's always a fierce ah gong with 3dogs guarding.. Must be quite nice, so we head in and search blindly.. To our surprise, we picked 12!! Twelve!! Awesome right! There's even more to go if we search more thoroughly. But our bags are all full! 3 of us.. Omg!! It's like 30 odd plus. Wee wee~ 1st and final of the year. Us this an evident of my luck? :) thanks..

Rubbish shit

2011-07-21T20:44:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I really don't understand my friends..
It's complicated..
It's not your fault,
None of ur business,
Etc

All these people can simply, easily scold vulgarities at friends for something small..
Push all blames to those who scolded her bitch,
And never really try finding out e true reason, never give others a chance to clarify,
All they will say are," it's been so long, I guess it's time to put an end to this friendship since she doesn't like me, since she's not listening or taking iny advice.. "

Wth! Seriously I don't understand u guys.. I know it's so not related to me, according to u both.
But how?? How is it not related when both are such a close friend of mine!?!?
No matter how much effort I put in to mend that small little hole? U two will keep tearing it apart.. Making it separates into two, and never gonna be tgt again.

Think carefully people!
Go read both ur tweets and blog!
Go scream and shout, fight and kill!
Till u two find a peaceful way to settle this!
Argh. Irritated..

Zzz...
This post started emotionally and became agitated, zzz.. This is not e main reason I posted this title, but forget it. Once I said it out, solveit urself.
Madness..

2011-07-15T00:01:00.002+08:00

seriously, without a boyfriend beside u, u tends to go havoc and do all sorts of nonsense.. (not me ok.. just an example)

haiz... just imagine what will happen if there is no1 there to pull u back. the string will snap and never return.

argh.. what nonsense im saying..

Awesome sentosa

2011-07-14T23:57:00.001+08:00

Idk how to resize.. Sian.. But it's pretty. :)

Nueve'7

2011-07-13T11:38:00.002+08:00

since time pass so slow after camp, i shall tell u guys what makes nueve 07 so unforgettable.

1. kanza seniors

they are basically awesome! always providing us with care and food.. brighten e atmosphere, teach us bonding games and amazing forfeits.

2. pocky stick!

i remember im the 3rd last person in the circle and all along, the stick is quite safe.. but once it reaches me, its 80% gone? haha... sabo!!

3. chicken dance

3guys had removed their top and dance in front of everyone as forfeit. while a few days later, all girls are doing the same for bathing slow, or perhaps, being late..

4. beach grand finale

awesome seniors are supporting us wholeheartedly and that made it memorable. =P

we are second!!

Tito 1st..

5. HTHT club

htht everywhere.. and thats when we are strongly bonded to each other. htht while prawning is hilarious..

6. Amazing race

i always love amazing race.. nothing much to elaborate.

oh... i guess we are exposed to many 1st time experience during this AR.

rock climbing, prawning, running in giant, and all over spore, feeding goat, parrot screaming in my ears, old airport road, smelly bean curd.. so much more!

7. crazy cheer ic & sister og

Touring spore

2011-07-13T11:26:00.001+08:00

Yest I went on a bus tour around spore from cck to clementi to hougang to Chinatown back to west coast and cck.
Spotted some awesome views and scenery that I would not forget going back once I gotten my Dslr. Hehe.. I guess this 3weeks I'm so gonna be alone doing all these nonsense around spore.

2011-07-11T20:12:00.002+08:00

my mum asked why my face is so green, today morning,

and asked if i was frightened by whatever stuffs..

den i simply play along and say i was scared of something that happened in camp..

and she ask daddy to buy me some powder..

=.=''

is it that serious?

whos crazy, my mum, dad or me??

my sis and i deemed daddy as crazy.

=.=''

totally.. omg..

SM town in paris

2011-07-11T15:25:00.002+08:00

OMG! all those angmo screaming at SM artists!

the scene is ultimately spectacular!

looking at them screaming, dancing along with e music and crying...

i mean.. i can understand.. during 2am 1st concert, i did cried at e starting as well. its awesome! who would expect or even predict your favourite artist, that u admire WILL perform right in front of you shaking your hands making fun of audiences around YOU!

the experience is imprinted in my heart and shall never be forgotten.

that goes to those in PARIS~

im sure they had a great time with e busiest group SM artist!

its definitely rare to see all of them on stage tgt.

tsktsk.. always a pity.. DBSK is incomplete.

hope they get tgt to perform one last time for all of us.

My condolences

2011-07-01T12:52:00.001+08:00

生老病死是大自然生生不息的原则，但不是每个人都能接受的事实。

昨晚莫名的不安，是否得知这突然来袭的消息？俗话说的好，人生短暂，要珍惜眼前人啊。。

突然之间，领悟了，开心就好。没人能告诉你老天爷何时看你不爽，也没人能预料，能猜想，能比较，什么才是对你自己最好的，最开心的，最想做得。。。

心情好，心情坏，还不是一样要过，为何要把自己的不愉快表现出来，影响别人的心情呢？开心得过吧，朋友。

不是人人都承受得起亲人，好友，在眼前渐渐地散去，渐渐地离开人事。节哀。要撑着！

Weird world, lousy peiple

2011-06-21T11:04:00.001+08:00

Why are everyone busy updating e world or get updates from others? Thou living in this world is impossible without knowing the factors that affect finance, environment, and politics, we normal beings can always remain low profile.

I just don't understand why people like to update so much, about themselves, about the silly things they did, about the things they saw and just don't stand up in the public to express their feelings.. Things include seeing pregnant lady standing in mrt and everyone else just pretend to sleep. If these people have the mindset to video or take photo down, why can't they go upfront, ask some passengers to get out of their seats? Sometimes I wonder if they need more attention? Maybe returning to childcare education suits them more. They simply have no idea how childish, how ignorant and how disgusting they are.

People stop posting rubbish on tweets, fb, or even stomp them out without going through ur mind that THIS action does not suit ur age anymore!

Oh btw, sometimes I do wonder, why photographers risk their life to take photos from 3rd world country which people their suffer from hunger? Should nt they be more compassionate? Shouldn't they go all out to ensure a more secure life for them, instead of spending much on transport, cameras, etc just to increase awareness? I do believe an awesome photo is enough to engage people's emotion, while it takes to tons of lousy photos to do so.

im a troublesome kid

2011-06-18T08:01:00.003+08:00

i wanted a DSLR.. =(

but its just so ex that i cant afford at my current stage.

At 1st i planned to study chemistry(NUS), cant get in. appeal takes a long time to reply. so, i went on accepting Chemistry and biochemistry in NTU. Find it rather dumb to study biochemistry that has nothing practical or useful thats applicable to reality. In impulse, i appealed for chemical and biomolecular engineering in NTU, so that if i didnt get into my dream school, i get into a more useful course and be it the one i had been studying for 3years without liking the gist.

now, i was accepted in CBE and of course automatically transferred to CBE! what should i do? although i dont like to study about biochem, i am not doing well in mathematics, which is essential for engineering course.
i do know that i wont be able to do well in both after reading about the modules in detail. maybe i should just go for engineering and buck up for mathematics and physics and take a minor in chemistry.
OR i should call and tell them i wanted to go CBC and be a forensic scientist in the future.

true.. i always wanted to be in a forensic, crime related job. but im not sure if CBE degree holders are able to do that even with a minor in chemistry. futhermore, whats the requirement of being a forensic? i cant even find it on9.. must it be a Ph.D or master? or just a Bachelors?

=(

choosing the course was just one part of the problem.
another part would be the cost.
i never wanted my parents to fork out a single cent for it so, i had decided to work for 1year before applying for NUS again, or maybe ntu.

yesterday, i told my mum, i do not have enough savings to study uni now and she said, how much will i use, or need?
and bla bla bla.. she said its affordable and she will pay for it, asking me to study this year and get it done over with.

=.=''

totally lost now, as i can only choose NTU courses.. and i dont even know if i was allowed to transfer back to CBC. i may just stuck here.. without a choice. even if i had a choice, idk what to choose.. =(

need advice, must find prof lee.
need DSLR, must save and do more OTs.!

Whats wrong with singaporeans?

2011-06-14T12:22:00.002+08:00

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/blogs/singaporescene/woman-threatens-set-herself-fire-outside-istana-051113227.html

look at this article, a china women was depressed as her hard earned money was spent in a private school for her child and couldnt get any refunds. so, she went crazy and tried to alert the government!

this is nonsense! she can go to GRC talk sessions, find some MP (but i know sometimes they are unable to help), or write a letter to straitstime or lianhewanbao or what so ever to get attention from public and of course ruined the school's reputation.
i must say that thats a stupid act no matter how much the others agree on her brave actions AS COMPARED TO COWARD SINGAPOREANS!. =.=''

some others even commented that its all PRC fault. Isn't there no1 else to blame? aint the mum dumb enough to enroll her student without knowing the school's policy? aint the school's or government regulations problem that resulted in the unhappiness of student parents?

what we should do is not to give all blames to PRC and self-assume that singapore is such a noble country! wth. *angry*
Ignorant singaporeans, please wake up.!

Friends That are not meant to be

2011-06-10T15:55:00.001+08:00

Someone once told me that he only need 1 friends in his whole life, the One and only true friend.

There might be lots of people whom will meet in life but most of them are simply acquaintance, not friends. My point of view may not be the same as most people, where acquaintance means hi-bye friend. To me, acquaintance are people who you do not understand and they never think about u or try to understand u.

Thus, after serious thoughts, I only have 4friends and the rest will just come and go in my life. :) hence, they are meant to be ignored

Overseas

2011-06-07T18:33:00.001+08:00

Indeed, we went overseas! Me long andy and vincent went pulau ubin last weekend and had our kampong experience. At 1st we reached quite late, at around 5pm and went touring around e island, thru cycling. Our 1st aim is to arrive at chek jawa, e mangrove wetland, but we retreated on e sight of a huge female wild boar in e middle of e passage way, staring at us. So.. We continue our journey with crab eating session. E crab is awesome while e rest are soso. Didn get to try their prawns as they did not manage to catch our orders! Zzz. Service is slow, we had to wait for rice even after all dishes arrived.  After dinner, sunset. Now we realised that none of us had torch, except vin hp. Horrible! We cant even get a lightstick. So ite, we cycle our way thru e lampless pathway surviving on vin's hp. Phew~ no wild boars encountered on our way home. Now we can only spend our night in e resort playing mahjong. And we, slept super early! Cause there is nothing to do. Zzz. Quite wasted.

Rose?

2011-05-31T08:54:00.001+08:00

Btw, i like this watermelon. Hehe

Saw that? Bye spore. .

2011-05-31T08:52:00.001+08:00

Im on cruise! Like finally.. Its always my mum and sis going on vacation, but this time round, im e only one free to join my aunt family for this trip. Cruise is free, cause my aunt is a member and we made used of her expiring points. Went on board and ate lots of food everyday. But only managed to shoot down chinese cuisine. E rest, i forgotten. Haha. Always have western buffet breakfast with lots of bread. :) went msia port klang jusco shop for cheap goods, and only bought 2clothes. Plus this and that, i only spent less than 150sgd. Amazing right. Haha, thanks. And of course, i feel a slight increment in my weight. :p

1st trip to barrage

2011-05-15T21:50:00.001+08:00

A happy day out with gcw friends. Its been long since we all last met. Some1 once said that when humans grow, they tend to be more scheming and cunning. Hence, work place is never a good location to find true friends. I guess this does not apply to part timers in gcw. True, how true do u wan a friend to be?  Is telling faults true? Is accepting nonsense and pay along with it true?  Is accepting unpredictable changes and behaviour, mood swing and tempers without giving reasons, apologises, explanation etc etc a real friend that we can trust and have faith in?   Idk. Whats wrong with every1 recently, or there is something wrong with me. Haha. So bored for not working bqt. So bored for staying at home alone playing rpg alone, eat alone. Maybe im not independent enough. I need to train! Firm.

My 1st packed lunch

2011-05-11T19:09:00.001+08:00

Haha. Mummy cooked soup for consecutively 2days, so i get to pack some to work-for 2days, 25 april and 26april. But on wed, im craving for fish slice noodle and asked mummy to stop cooking for now. After staying overseas for so long, i finally get to enjoy my noodle and all sorts of rubbish that a multi national country will have. Haha. Thanks lky?  Argh, shall not start on politics discussion. Haha. Im a in btw kid, not being allowed to vote. Zzz. Shall not share a single crap up here. Later all parties disown me and must pay more fines. Im so broke recently, cant afford that. Unlike mps who gets extremely high pay for socialising and threatening citizens for not being grateful for what they had done to make e nation prosperous and wealthy, we, poor, authentic citizens are not unable to deny e fact and continue to live under their enormous power. :p

Flower blooming

2011-05-11T18:59:00.001+08:00

4 may 11, my dad announced e blooming of my neighbour's plant that day. This plant, name unknown, only blooms in an hour, 2330 to 0030. Aint it special? So i stay up late, forgo my sleep and risk my pay for this! Its indeed beautiful. I watched it around midnight and my dad warned me it will wither by then. Lucky me, e other petals withered partially while e mains are still alright. That explains all e black petals at e back.   A gardener try his best to groom and fertilise his babies (e pot of plant), for this moment. Thou e duration is not long, it witnessed and proved his effort. Of course, this moment will be e most satisfactory and memorable 1 for every gardener. Some traditional ah ma will tell u seeing e blooming of that plant, symbolise a blissful day and everything will go according to ur wish, bla bla bla.   I do believe looking at beautiful things make u happy and everything will then be according to ur wish. 世间情物可随风而来，也能轻易得被拿去。人总得学会什么叫 “拿的起，放得下。”  Haha. Shall stop here.

2011-04-13T02:33:00.002+08:00

tsk.tsk. now weighing both sides

going (why):

its service learning trip
its cambodia
im dying to help out
need to experience tougher lives and kill those spoilt-brat bragging over abcdefg
teaching english there is so much better and useful than those here.. cry
wanted to look around and experience their culture
i wan some kampong life that i went throu in changmai. miss nawai village. ='(

not-going:

mummy wan go graduation
mummy wan ME to go graduation
no money
need to get a full time job and hard to find 1 if i need to apply a week's leave
im on debts. not gonna be on debts any longer

cry.. what should i do?
should i really, dying, must go for a job of my industry?
admins, and sales jobs are much more available now, to me.
how can i find one thats so .. argh. not fair.

even after weighing both sides, going seems much more appealing than not going. im confused. i need help. even after some1 told me money is not a problem, im still unable to close 1 eye.. heh.

time to let go

2011-04-13T02:23:00.002+08:00

haiz..
my long awaiting cambodia trip is finally available.
but i couldnt go. perhaps, i just decided not to waste time, money, life on the trip. and not spending time on getting a full time job. not spending money on their daily necessities, not spending life thinking of ways to help but just going there to have fun and "help".

e fact is, we are actually paying the money to e organization and air planes so that we have e skills and we can apply it there. why must people go there to teach them how to use soap and bathe and give them soap. i know its meaningful, but i feel that its not meaningful enough. most of the trip seems to be just giving us a time to interact w the kids there and some days to spend our life in cambodia, looking around.

ok. reasonable. but if, its sponsoring a kid to school, or going there often to improve their living standards and working abilities, i will have more motivation and strength to rebut my mum and go. but its so not gonna happen. cry..

My noodle

2011-04-10T22:39:00.001+08:00

Mum's chicken soup plus random maggi noodle. Wee

Gardening

2011-04-09T18:41:00.001+08:00

Growing peony. Haha. It starts today and lets wait 20 days for it to bloom

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2011-04-07T03:00:00.001+08:00

See that! My kimchi stew 03042011. Haha

Mrt train resting

2011-04-07T02:58:00.001+08:00

Haha. I spotted this in e middle of e night while waiting for last bus. Is e train sleeping? Or no place to park? Maybe e driver need a place to rest and parks e train in e middle of e rail, knowing that there will not be any train working at this hour. Its a question to be answered, u to find out and gossip w me. :p

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2011-04-07T02:52:00.000+08:00

Waiting for e last bus at a ulu bus stop... I scared there is no more bus. This time is not abt ghost, haha

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2011-04-07T02:48:00.001+08:00

Went for ice cream w bin on one random day after meeting juniors

2011-04-06T22:09:00.002+08:00

argh! my Pri 1 kid is so dumb!!

im so going to kill him one day, if he crys in front of me.

my life

2011-04-06T12:03:00.002+08:00

i think i lead a boring life.

now, thinking through again.. i lead a meaningless life.

bored and meaningless. tsktsk.

i need to get a job to improve my fighting spirit. so dead now.
sleep at 10hrs a day, doing nth. go for tutoring but still so bored and simple. tsk. angry. need to find some more students of better standards..

1st singapore food

2011-04-03T15:22:00.001+08:00

Yes! I return home again. With sweet potato soup welcoming me, i feel refreshed. But... E soup is no longer sweet. Very sour. Zzz

2011-04-01T02:14:00.002+08:00

밎이겠다.

누구가 쌀려주세요?

wrong in broken korean so no1 can understand. its my own language. heh.

2011-03-30T00:02:00.002+08:00

may i know whats wrong with me?

idk
dik
idk.

am i right to feel guilty?
should i...............
no no.

argh.
lost.
need a run.
need to calm down.
need to relax.
perhaps resting is no longer what i need..
is my body temperature too high today? burnt my head. spoiled my brain. consumed my body.

argh!!

what i miss doing in korea.

2011-03-24T01:54:00.002+08:00

1. staying late at night
2. finding baskin robbins to eat in every town
3. seniors with lots of jokes
4. gossiping with bu
5. chatting with professors
6. jogging in winter
7. movies with korean subs
8. korean friends
9. someone who always mimic me
10. relax days, slacking hours..
11. korean 노래방
12. drinking soju and makeogli
13. korean cuisine especially 무현오빠 엄마's 김지
14. my room
15. my bed
16. the weather thou it makes me grow pimple.
..
..
..

so much more that i couldnt list them out. i can only figure out those that i miss now. maybe i will miss them later in my life, but not now.

anyway, i love singapore more than any country. im patriotic! please think this way too guys. we must support our motherland even thou we admire other countries culture and lifestyle. =P. work towards them. thats a good goal!

who, you or me?

2011-03-17T05:27:00.003+08:00

im sorry.
stubborn doesnt help, being guilty, being regretful doesnt help at all.
and of course cry is useless.

just like letting a mucus hang in the air and not wiping it off. just let it swing and swing, eventually dropping or dry up.

if misunderstanding can lead to ultimate jealousy, and all sorts of nonsense, i really dont know what i should do. am i too strong-willed, that broke ur fragile heart? or are u just too used to my absolute understanding and perhaps hack-care-attitude, that u decided things are better to leave it the way it is.

there seriously exist a problem, but u never cares and of course to everyone, it seems like I AM THE ONE who never cares. after today, i really wonder, after trying million years of caring, (secretly), no1 understands and no1 appreciates it. whats the point of being concern in the 1st place? why when things happen, im not the 1st to know? i have to wait for news to spread, for the world to find out, and slowly, drift towards me. i wonder, am i always the last to know? and always from some one else mouth.

sometimes i wonder, how well do u know me, when u are supposed to be e one who knows me the best. perhaps i changed? or maybe its u. ..
grow up please. i couldn't take your nonsense anymore.
fed up. i just need a nice time, a good place, for a PEACEFUL CHAT. why is it never possible?

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2011-03-16T07:42:00.001+08:00

Pretty?  Some random day in spore, lim chu kang coast guard, ? .  I miss korea.

cancerians

2011-03-15T02:47:00.001+08:00

found this in some1's blog. read it if u dont understand me. i think u guys need to read it. =P

22nd June to 23rd July

Symbol: The Crab
Ruling Planet: Moon
Quality: Cardinal
Element: Water
Basic Trait: I Feel
Closest Metal: Silver
Lucky Day: Monday
Lucky Colors: Green, Silver-Grey, Cream and White
Lucky Gems: Opal, Pearl and Moonstone
Lucky Flowers: Daisies and Wallflowers

Cancer zodiac sign has the symbol of 'The Crab'. One of the basic characteristics of a Cancerian is that he is very prone to mood swings, which are matched by changing emotions. At one point of time, you may have seen him in a typical party mood, enjoying himself and laughing at other people's jokes. He may come across as the most extroverted member in the entire group. However, another time, he may be completely introverted, sitting in a corner and lost in his own world. This single personality trait can help you in identifying a Cancer very easily.

A Cancerian will never run behind fame and publicity, but if he ever gets it, he definitely knows how to bask in the limelight. In a melancholic mood, he can become the coldest person on this earth and drown you in his bottomless depression. Cancerians are prone to pessimism and usually hide their fears behind a veil of humor. They love to dream and for them, sky's the limit. When he cries, it is because he is deeply hurt from inside. A harsh glance or a rough tone can easily break Cancer's vulnerable heart.

When he is hurt, he will either cry his heart out or retreat into a silent spell. However, it is rare that he takes revenge from the one who has hurt him. If a Cancer retreats to his shell, you can be sure he will become completely unreachable. He won't pick his phone, answer the doorbell or even check his mail. Another mood that can engulf a Cancer is a snappy one, or you can say a crabby one. He will hate the world and snap at anything and everything. However, you can be sure he is not angry with you and will soon be his normal self again.

While in a conversation, the facial features of a crab will change a number of times, displaying his numerous moods. He has a vivid imagination and at times will drown you in his moods too. Each and every experience affects him and gets engraved in his memory. Cancerians remember everything life has taught them and are true patriots. Past intrigues them and they love to collect antiques, old treasures and ancient relics. They are the perfect keepers of secrets and people automatically confide in them.

However, their own thoughts and secrets are strictly off limits for everyone. A typical cancer will never discuss his personal life with anyone. Compassion and intuition gel perfectly with the Cancer profile. He seldom judges people, just soaks up what comes his way and reflects the same. He will never ever give up an object he cherishes, be it a gift from a lover or the worn jeans he loves wearing. Cancerians have a soft heart; they care about people and are quite helpful. However, they wait to see if someone else is helping.

If the answer is yes, they will sit back and let the other person be the savior. In case no one comes forward; they will be there to rescue you. A Cancer person may come at the last minute, but he will save you just before you are about to drown. He is not selfish, it just that he never wants to be impulsive. But, he will save you nonetheless. Before he makes any move, a Cancerian must be sure of strong backing. Without it, he hates to venture on his own. He does not forget mistakes easily, especially his own.

He will brood over them and take a long time before moving ahead again. Cancerian loves, rather reveres, his home and his loved ones. Too much is not even enough for him. He needs more, more security, more love and more care. Insecurity may lead him to depression and weaken him physically. However, Cancerians have this amazing quality of self-healing. All they require is happiness, optimism and laughter in large doses. They are prone to negative thoughts and are always preparing for the unseen future.

The maxim 'Old is Gold' fits perfectly to a Cancer, whether it is the case of people or things. He is also very good at making as well as managing wealth. He has a large heart and will share willingly if his loved ones are in need. However, wastage, especially of food, is sure to tick him off. All the sensitivity of a crab is hidden beneath his hard shell and it will take much care and love to bring him out of his shell and close to you!

good. =)
thanks for reading. if u are curious abt urs, try the web below.
http://www.iloveindia.com/astrology/sun-signs/index.html

2011-03-15T02:14:00.002+08:00

Wahaha~

went for crystal farewell, to shanghai.
helped out with her packing using some mouth and eye power
=P
and stole some kitkat and hola hoop home. my god. the scene is dame hilarious. carrying a hola hoop, some kit kat and a bag with fbt and jersey.

god. i thrown all my face away! luckily there aint any one around starring at me and jack in the middle of the night. jack was dame funny as well. wearing blouse with some 3/4 pants, plus backpack and a huge recycle bag! the recycle bag was dame awkward. like some immigrants or Burglar, cause we just came out of a private house district. zzz.

like 2 mad women standing in the middle of the road trying to flag some cab. hope thats no one spotted us, then we will end up in stomp headlines. zzz..

2011-03-10T01:29:00.002+08:00

sometimes i regret, sometimes i dont. im confused. everything seems to be complicated. idk. is it .. i envious him, but thats what he feels as well. ii dont like my life there. miserable.

extrremely miserable. hard to fit in. couldnt get involve. always forgotten..

i dont wish to leave this place anymore.
can i stop here?
idk.
its complicated.

unlike me.
or am i returning?
did the trip makes another dramatic change to my life?
making me .. ..
idk.
ignore.
forget it. but hard to forget.
i dont like it. what should i do.
useless piece of shit. heh.

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2011-03-08T12:00:00.001+08:00

Why litter and get fined?  Den why must u create such a law?

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2011-03-08T02:54:00.003+08:00

There is always something to laugh at in this department. Saw this on e wall on my way home. I wonder if it has always been around since i pass by this alley everyday. I think this is taken a week ago. So gonna miss korea, and this special department. Every day seems fun here but boring back there...

Friend..

2011-03-08T02:54:00.001+08:00

Im troubled. I need a friend. But who? Doggy? No one..

mum's joke

2011-03-06T15:59:00.002+08:00

yesterday i complained that creature never shakes!!
no matter where i put!

this is what happened this morning.
she placed it on top of a wine bottle, on our dining table and said
"there, its shaking!!" (putting her hand on the table, and shake the table)
but in fact, the creature is not shaking, but the artifical flower besides it was crying for help!

Meaning of valentine day

2011-03-05T22:30:00.002+08:00

why must valentine's day be on spring and not any other season?
it signifies the beginning.

and why must chocolate be a compulsory gift?
chocolate doesn't melt as fast in spring though it taste best in room temperature.

i like spring~

2011-03-04T03:23:00.002+08:00

Anyway, i made an achievement. i make friends in korea that cherish me just like how i cherish them.

i met seniors that are really great, like a legend.

it made me experience life without friends and family. life with only coldness and food.

nmw, i repent. i never regret going to korea.
its my dream country and if i have the chance i will wan to migrate/work there.
but i guess, i prefer singapore. i will rather just work there and continue my life here. =)

recently my skin condition is excellent!
no pimples, no skin peeling. good. tropical country is my type.

FUCK!

2011-03-03T02:18:00.002+08:00

my application in NUS is not confirmed. by right, it should be done by now.
so what it means? im not going to get into NUS anymore!
wth.
this is the worst decision i made in life. to go korea without having an idea how i can apply for uni and giving my sis to apply everything for me in a extremely busy period, in korea.

saying about that, korea makes me really upset and angry. other than watching stars and 2am to brighten my mood, or perhaps they are there to fill up my time and not just staring around asking for jobs. i couldnt get more pissed off than wasting 6months of my life doing nothing and eventually neglected my university application!

fuck! ㅅㅂ!

am i going to waste another year of mine? bullshit.
decisions have to be made, life has to go on. what should i do friends?
getting into a NTU course, not so much of my interest, or waste 1 year to admit NUS?

freak.

thinking back, i hate my life in korea. no one knows it more than me. try being foegotten, ignored, neglected, not-spoken-to, sit there and rot. find your own stuff to do. not carrying out any experiments and not learning anything from them. maybe just a little, the 1st month. and others, i asked for it. i literally speak out to them, i need work, i need job. i never want to rest. but nothing was given. that explains my bad attitude and behavior in the last 3months there.

someone once told me that they actually care for me. what is care when i don't need that? im a workaholic. studying is my biggest pleasure. going there makes me lose motivation, seriously. the moment i stepped back into home, i know, its really the time to work. i wasted 6months, freaking 6months. chasing idols that do no use to my life. looking at comedies, trying to stay cheerful in front of all of them. now i realise, im not. im seriously unhappy. no one knows. no one cares. even my boyfriend and my mum doesnt care, who will?

fucked up!
totally!

im speechless. tried to calm down, but couldnt. same thing happened in korea thousand times. complained to zh, but nothing changed. complaining doesnt make me feel better. it just makes another soul feel sorry for me.

fuck.
i ruined my life.

2011-02-23T02:07:00.002+08:00

argh. im getting mad.

too busy.

left 3days here. today, wednesday got to farewell 건희 for studying in busan, and myself! =.='' lunch and dinner booked. surely spending the whole day out.
thursday? lab will be busy. i need to help out, another day gone.
friday, planning to make my last trip to post office and send off 3boxes.! phew~ just finish packing one, gonna pack all the posters and buy big bang 4th album for benny on fri and pack them up! woo~ so busy!!

need to rest, but.. heh heh. report need to be submitted on this friday, but luckily im overseas, chong (LO) said we will submit it on our return. zzz. nmw, returning soon and i need to get it done! dame! spend my life packing luggages and watching shows, get beaten up, doing nonsense stuns. =.=''
now its time to burn midnight oil.. so not gonna sleep today as i have to finish that bloody report tonight. there is no other days to do it. farewell party, PARTY!, thats the only day the whole lab is tgt and we will definitely have a drink. korea culture.. theres never a party without liquors. dame.. drinking waste 2days! the day u drink and the day u get drunk.! dame. my life is gone if i cant finish the report tonight. not tonight by this afternoon.. ='(

argh~ going mad!! my room is too messy for me to do report! sian sian sian. =(

will upload photo soon, meanwhile, view bu's or cibin's fb for my update. they have nothing much to do recently. ㅋㅋㅋ

Final party

2011-02-17T12:22:00.002+08:00

is it the last one?

im not sure, maybe there is one more next week..
yesterday its freshman orientation final day, so we went for a party and see them keep drinking, i restrain myself from joining the drinking crowd. running here and there to take photo and ignore the culture of drinking with seniors. *ignore ignore*

=D

i dont feel like leaving. i dont know what to study in spore. bioleaching is fine with me, and i kind of like the target of this research.. couldnt find a course of my absolute interest except for chemistry. but what if i couldnt get in to NUS chemistry? NTU chemistry is of a diff research ground. so pointless..

maybe i should consider studying in korea.. but i dont like the stuffs they study in the collage. i just wan to do bioleaching. is that even possible? haiz. troubled kid is finally leaving.. will i miss here and hate spore? or the other way round? just thinking, if i have a chance to work in korea, will i come here and stay for long? im always paranoid. *ignore ignore*

need to do my report. stuck on part 1 and theres still part 2, 3, 4, 5, 6.... etc.

2011-02-15T15:42:00.002+08:00

shit. i feel extremely ultra irritated now! why is my microsoft office in korean! my referencing turns out to be in korean as well. wth. i need to write my report, but cant do the references. how am i suppose to finish it in time! argh. i need a english microsoft! cant find dl.. cant dl from np cause im not under npnet. wth. so gonna die. and my data aint out yet, so how am i going to write my report!!

cry cry. gonna spend nights on it alr. its pushing me..

change in plan

2011-02-14T15:02:00.003+08:00

gonna stay here for 2 more days to shop and play. =P

its a 1am arrival flight on 3rd march. what a good day right? everyone will be free. wahaha~

since its 1am, i only expect my daddy to be there. =P
anyone else there will have to go home by urself ok? ㅋㅋㅋ

rush hour

2011-02-14T10:32:00.002+08:00

man~~

im so gonna die! next week im going back and my report is less than half way done. argh! gonna mug this week!

형준오빠 & 무현오빠 should stop disturbing me and get lost. =P

chant: they are not gonna read my blog~~ they would never see this. =D

so i will still be alive here.

2011-02-10T11:59:00.001+08:00

argh! shit.

4 more points for ARLS i will get gold. just 4! wth. if im in spore....

and why aint my strings point approve yet. kill strings!

depress

2011-02-10T10:40:00.001+08:00

no experiments, no report.

2011-02-08T15:34:00.002+08:00

=( consecultively late for a month. reach ultra late EVERYDAY! feel like dying. why am i late? i always ask myself.

i still dunno why. zzz...
really sleep very early. really set alarm early. really wake up early (7/8am) but somehow, i either went back to sleep again, thou im not tired. somehow, i will do everything so slowly that i can bathe up till 1.5hrs and eat breakfast for another 1hr. wth. ! ! !

i think im mad at waking up myself. ㅠㅠ

crazy girl need to die soon. please morning call me a day and i will be able to wake up by myself..

CNY GOODIES

2011-01-31T15:50:00.002+08:00

=.=

i haven decide what to do in CNY in korea. argh
not gonna to stay at home rushing report. but my report need to be rushed! wth. feel like dying..

i wan pineapple tarts,
tmr will be going to rupeng's hse for steamboat..
den i dunno what to do alr...

i wan rabbit sweets. bakgua! oh shit, yest i saw mei zhen xiang. but dont feel like wasting money on expensive bakgua!

lol. feel stupid. ignore me. =(

dying. argh! i wan eat yusheng. must tell rupeng tmr make yusheng! with smoke salmon of course. =D

confuse

2011-01-31T15:17:00.002+08:00

should i apply for uni admission this year? or next? im so troubled.
reason being,

i dont think im in the mood to study. i need to take a rest. play awhile, study english more and chemistry much much more.

i dont think my standard is good enough to survive in uni..

i have no financial abilities and find no talent in pursuing a degree.

Study is the only element i do well in life, but its not that excellent to get good grades in uni. i have no confidence in doing well. dont wish to waste time in doing something that i will regret or feel terrible about.

can some1 tell me what to do?

extremely troubled.. my friends always think i manage my time between work and study well. but in fact, i choose to work to escape my inability in studying subjects that are difficult to understand, and choose to study when working is full of politics and misery.

=(

i really dunno whats there to do. i think i need to play a year to decide, thou my grades may be just enough to get in the course i wanted to. but i dont wish to study now. i need a break to do things i like, eg. learning korean + improve my english, backpack travel in SEA, find some place to waste time. just sit and stare =P

anyway, i know that uni will only start in earliest august right? most people will think that by the time, i had played enough and will regret for not applying for uni.. i think so too. but has no motivation to apply for uni now, what should i do?

~~

bu's in singapore

2011-01-18T16:35:00.003+08:00

wah~ saw her fb, she staying in pan pacific.
so good. everywhere is near to her..
can go city link walk walk,
too much ppl, go esplanade slack. if not, take a boat ride along that "river".
clubs and pubs are all nearby
food is everywhere
all those bungee jump is all around as well right? all in clarke quay~

wah!! envious.
신가폴 가고 싶어요!!

i miss my food~ argh! argh! gonna stop thinking

2011-01-18T12:12:00.002+08:00

i love the snow in korea.
but its been snowing too much that i cant carry my box to post office and get it sent back to spore. =.=''
gonna borrow a trolley from my roommate but shes not coming back so soon, thou she told me she would be back on last saturday. =.=''
its been dragging on and on. i gonna send everything home soon.
i guess i will just send EVERYTHING home and tan long king please get all of them from my lovely sister, :P. i alr sort out and labeled them. just that poster had to be sent separately, and all poster are packed tgt. its hard to send them to different places. make my life easier, send all home. my house have large spaces for that 2 boxes. they can just store it in mine or my bro's room since we are both not around. =D

cant wait to go home... its been 3yrs. i miss my home, my bed, my study desk.. and that sofa thats always mine! (for tv mania)
everyone was telling me that they wanna visit my house.. cant wait to see the current condition.. if that house is ruined, den i will remind u guys 1st. wahaha~ dont expect much..

i miss singapore

2011-01-17T12:36:00.003+08:00

=(

bu is leaving for spore this afternoon, i think its now?
thinking of going back, i tot of so much food. my mum's delicious bitterground with pork rib, bak kut teh.. etc etc

crystal jade's mantou & egg tart
ding tai feng's xiao long bao
maxwell's goreng pissah? & fish head beehoon
KOI!! my koi bubble tea
NP's kaki fuyong
coffee club's garlic prawn pasta
four season's durian pancake
chinatown's bak kua
commonwealth's butter prawns
=.=''

stop thinking!! ='(
that day, monday i will arrive around 2-3pm at changi. will some1 come fetch me and we shall go for a feast!

what is your definition of life?

2011-01-13T13:08:00.004+08:00

http://www.pooler-georgia-homepage.com/images/life-purpose-poster-web.jpg

life is about wasting time.
any decision you had in life makes u waste more time to reach the finish goal.
in any case, you made the wrong 1, its ok. there are tons of yrs waiting for you behind. so long as you never regretted your actions, time is not a problem.

when u are born, u cry, eat and sleep to waste time
As time makes u grow, grow tall, grow old, grow mature.
when u are a child, studying + playing is the best way to spend time. hence, its just about wasting time.
then u get married and spend time with ur partner and kids..
still, it comes to the basis of life, wasting time.

very often you will hear people saying they dont have time. but whats time?
time decides your life and vise versa.
leading a fulfilling life, satisfyingly should always be the final goal of human beings isn't it?

however, there are too much black sheep in this world that makes "white sheep" like me, thinking in this manner seems weird to the rest of them.
black sheeps kill, pollute, destroy and claimed that its for the future generations. great inventors and scientists must always had a mind of doing bad in order to benefit the future. while now, this generation scientists are all trying to undo their mistakes.
whats gonna be done..

hey, im gonna stop here. its drifting off my main topic. if i continue, im so gonna be bias and curse and swear.

guilty

2011-01-12T20:37:00.002+08:00

as everyone knows, im always a mugger. no matter how naughty, how playful i seems to be, i always study well. study is part of my hobby.

during my stay here, i had not been studying or learning anything much for almost 3months alr, it is not totally because im playing. in fact, i didnt play alot. i played because there is nothing else to do. i played because if i dont, i will just be staring at the blank or sleep. i slept too much these few days, somehow this is the 1st holiday i ever get in my life and i hate it.

i want to study! not play. i can always play in the weekends.. but weekday, im trapped in the lab, with nothing to do. cant go out for long at most 2 -3 hrs, cant stay in the lab, cause i can only sleep or play and that leads to more scolding...

HJ oppa always tell me, why am i always playing and not studying. i always wanted to reply, there is nothing to do! what else do u expect me to do?? other than playing games? but i didnt, and just smile back. he also said that my image is a girl thats always late, always playing game, but never studies. that is so not true in spore.! ITS ONLY HERE! i really had nothing to do. even if im reading books, its just some ph.D standard books that a poor diploma kid like me never understands! and i just blindly read..

when ever i asked for work, they will give me nothing. its not as if i didnt ask for it. bu asked them to give me some work for lots of times as well, but they simply ignore. what can i do!?
*cry*

i seriously wanted to work!! give me work..
feels extremely useless in korea. im just wasting my blooding life here. cant go out for travelling, cant study as well, even thou im sent here to assist their research, i seems to be sent here to observe korea life and hierarchy ranking..

cant find a purpose here, just want to stay here and play cause i never ever study. im so gonna flunk my report and presentation

first time tuning guitar

2011-01-12T10:22:00.004+08:00

its the last string. and it snapped because my friend keeps turning it and i just wanted to stop and test something.. so, my hand was right in front of the strings, luckily not my face.. wahaha..

so her mum helped me bandage it and seems really serious. but actually, its just a small cut.. somewhat ridiculous right.. tried to help them tune guitar cause their family only plays piano and never did tuning. furthermore the piano girl, my roommate, is not at home at the moment, so we just tried to play with it a little. given my very little violin knowledge, i still did remember tuning techniques, so i supposed its the same, so long as there is tuner, everything turns out easy. but.. zzz. the string snaps. =.=''

in case u guys doesnt know, i had been going to my roommate's house for consecutive 3 weekends. 1st is during xmas, to enjoy family feel, then next is aft 2am concert, her house is nearer than school, and its alr quite late. moreover, her dad is hospitalized so there is no1 helping out with the housework and taking care of her younger brother as her mum is staying in the hospital with her dad. so, me, self-proclaimed-good-cook, tried my best to cook for them. breakfast- pancake (instant, thats y its easy. just follow the instructions and mix the four)
lunch - samgeopsa (3-tier pork, cooking it as korean style) + omelette (my fav, and easiest to make)
dinner - SPAGHETTI!! ( thats what i always say im good at making and thats the only thing i can make.. of course i still uses tomato sauce. next time i wanted to try aglio olio and carbonara!)

lets enjoy the pictures below. =D

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2011-01-07T16:12:00.001+08:00

Isn't it pretty? Took last week. After snow, e scenery is awesome. Before that its ultra cold and long later, many problems will occur. Frozen road, slippery stairs, and stairs becoming slope instead. I fell down e who slope and gotten myself 2 huge bruise. Its crazy

menstrual cramp

2011-01-07T12:04:00.002+08:00

its something that guys can never understand.

they must be thinking, why is she acting like this?
is it really that hurting?

for those guys out there:
"menstrual cramp feels like you are having a terrible stomach flu for 50days! that kind of pain, accumulates to 1day, just a few mins or sometimes the whole day!"

try it once, and you will regret being born as a female. born to experience this kind of pain every month and experience pregnancy in the future.. its gonna be terrible!
but somehow, im glad that im not a guy. =) no NS! wahahaha

난 머르겠엉어요

2011-01-06T17:05:00.003+08:00

whats wrong with couples these days?

is this year an ominnous year for relationship? most of my friends broke up!? why why? althou some are meant to be, but some are really heavenly match! how is it possible? even after they break, they are both extremely upset. its so ... feel so sorry for them. this shouldn't happen at all but they know that its gonna be now or never. someone has to open their mouth, its a relationship that doesn't last, just who is willing to start the talk...

so heart-breaking, seriously.. a 3years relationship among the campus is hard to forget. everywhere you go, its full of memories.. its 정말 자장나! 잖아.

i dont like this few when both couples are my close friend... gonna hurt alot. for them and for me. seriously... i dont like it. and that girl had to avoid the guy, cause the guy is already moving on and that poor lady is still on the same spot, unmoved. isn't it pathetic? i seriously don't understand why guys, even though they are not feeling well, they can still meet more girls and comfort themselves so fast! girls, take time.. time and more time. it is really impt to calm down and think ahead...

asus

2011-01-05T16:10:00.000+08:00

My lappy! Pretty, with keyboard protector

NEW LAPPY!

2011-01-04T14:05:00.000+08:00

hi guys,

gotten my new laptop, my seniors were saying its a netbook, not a notebook, but i think its a notebook. wahaha

its matt black, 12inch, asus.
kind of pretty but the ultra smooth surface makes my fingerprints more obvious, gonna make a transparent skin and buy screen protector and keyboard protector.

there is just too much to buy, too little to spend. need to manage my financial system more carefully now.

just gotten a ~$250 penalty from government for not making a foreigner card within the 1st 3months of arrival, wth. they didnt inform our seniors and of course we will not know that. cry cry~
with the card, i can go for korean classes free, but its too late. everything is just about spending lots of money now, who ask us to be the 1st batch to come to korea. we have to spend some money to avoid more trouble.

my lappy is in good condition now, quite fast, quite normal. i haven finish adding all my medias in, we will see how slow it works by then. gonna find cheap covers and screen protector on9 now, thinking if i should get a cover instead of making a skin.. cause the cover is like ipad, not like a laptop case. its always there..

雪

2010-12-29T16:08:00.000+08:00

看不出来吧，今天又下雪了。下得好大，但拍不出来。  雪是个过程。它是为了协助天上的云，帮忙移植到大地，到草原，到我们眼前。   雪下完后，天上的云淡了，地上却像是多了无数的云。《蓝蓝的天，白白的云》就想在形容现在这场景吧。。。

2010-12-28T22:50:00.001+08:00

='(
actually, by right,
i had posted so much posts, but my lab wifi crazy, dont allow my upload. =.='' there is so many pictures to show you guys.. its snowing crazily. everyday snowstorm. and its sudden snow storm!. eager to show, but cant. need to waiit for the arrival of my laptop. gonna sleep now. bye
ㅠ.ㅠ

Snowman!

2010-12-26T16:08:00.000+08:00

My 1st snowman. Thanks to e heavy snow for 3 days and my roommate, we get to play with snow. Yeah.

drinking week~

2010-12-20T19:54:00.000+08:00

Alright,
last friday, 17 dec was the last day of semester.
the department, my department, has a huge closing party and i was invited to join.
(feel kind of bad cause they never let us pay! but the others are all paying.) and if u know me, im not the one who likes to get involve with money in a relationship, as friends. its really bad to always quarrel about money. so if they say no, i never argue, but i couldnt bare myself to ask it, so i asked cibin to talk about it, but they still say its okay!. =.=
totally, cui~

thats the day when i got drunk, 1st time in my life. did i ever mention, a senior of mine always hit me and hes not like those in spore, much bigger size den andrew lee, so, i always got bruise even thou hes not really hitting. kind of weird. when i got drunk and i dont rmb, bu told me that i keep hitting him, mu-hyon oppa. wahaha~ so i told her, perhaps subconsciously, i need a revenge! and im drunk, he cant do anything about it and couldnt blame me for that.

sometimes, its kind of good to get drunk and know your weird behaviours and hangover feeling. furthermore, the pubs are just outside my school, its kind of safer to get drunk here than back in spore, isnt it? at least your friends are all around, being penniless, and stay nearby. thats all i ask for when i needed to drink so much.

then, they asked me on sat, how much bottles did i actually drink, i told them, idk! i just continue when im drunk, i rmb myself still drinking even thou im drunk, but i couldnt rmb who and why. wahaha~ there they questioned themselves, who made me drink? i guess, its all me. i kind of adore soju, and sometimes drink it like a tea. but i never drank so much. maybe its the ambience, maybe its the people. wahaha~

anyway, thanks to bu and gin.

WAHAHA~ YOU THOUGHT IT WILL BE FINISHED RIGHT?
NO! theres a 3rd story. this is on sat, 18 dec when my professor brought us, the whole lab and few lab's alumni, to his fav japanese restaurant for a party.

idk whether its his fav cause we always go there, maybe its quiet, maybe he knows the owner. but i must admit the food was good! really good! so jappy~ and i heard a meal for a person is at least $40. very expensive isnt it, and we always have appetiser, sashimi, main dish, desert and then a porridge.

porridge is korean style, not jap.

but its always a slow process, so everyone is drinking and toasting and making the "seniors" drink. especially the alumni. there is 3.

korean style, kneel down in front of a senior and pour him a drink, den he will return you one. they usually use shot glass for soju and normal mug for beer. not beer mug, just a normal mug you will use at home for juices. then, some senior teached me a cool drink last time, and i made it for the most senior guy there, coke + soju + beer. its a excellent taste, you gonna try it if you ever comes korea with me. (evil smile) its also a drink that makes you drunk in a second. is very strong. i was half dead when i drink lots of that and only that.

then, we went singing~ a great place with lots of english songs, but i will never sing. its korea! get more korea songs!!

all along, we sang really high songs with only a 2am song (by me and my labmates) when the alumni requested to slow down the pace a second. wahaha~
lights dimmed, drunkens danced, seniors laughed. im not drunk, but im playing alone with the drunks. they are just too funny that i had to mimic them. wahaha~

some quarrelled with a mop for blocking his way, some shake his tummy in a funny way. there are so much more~ and theres only 3 ladies with a bunch of guys, half of them drunk. after singing, totally exhausted, got home, watched shows, sleep. but the guys, they got their nights out! it not even midnight, how can they waste it? so.. i always made e right assumption, they drunk till they forgot themselves and everyone else. left hyungjun oppa alone in the pub, sleeping and pay the bill. pathetic.

lappy funeral

2010-12-20T19:09:00.002+08:00

yest, i accidentally smash my lappy~
wow! bravo! thats extremely smart!

just a drop from my desk, to the ground, its no longer working. zzz. found bu today help and she helped me find acer service centre in korea. what a tragic, the acer in korea does not have my model, so if theres any spoil parts, i gonna wait for AT LEAST 3 MONTHS to get repaired. by the time, im alr back. =.='' he also said that, from the situation and screen i see, most likely, i broke my harddisk. =( im freaking lucky. its just a slight drop. not comparable with those i had in school, where i dropped it in lecture theatre a thousand times. feeling miserable now. i really have no idea what to do to it.

bu was suggesting me to borrow a lappy from some shop for $4/day, kind of leaching my money, dont wan. i can survive without lappy and just use those in the lab and use bu's for skype.

need to get to some nearby repair stores to get it checked, cause the service centre, as usual, its in seoul. what am i gonna do? any advice? should i just send it home for repair since my warranty is not up yet? and get it sent back again? kind of waste of money right? but if i dont repair it now, the warranty's gonna up.. ㅠ_ㅠ

so fustrated and furious!!

sign

2010-12-16T13:10:00.002+08:00

=)

totally random.

went through tons of blogs that i didnt manage to read in ages. kind of surprised with all the happenings to my buddies. i feel sorry. probably guilty. guilty for not concerning. only bother with my own life, and never really pay much attention to them.

=( buddies,
are we really buddies? or just acquaintance? im too far away to be concerned. need a drink, need me around, but i can never be. need to chat, wanted to call, but too expensive.

what am i now?

phew~

i cried, reading at their blogs. cry for not knowing it. cry for not being able to help them through the tough times.

im so not in the mood to finish my report now. but got to do it.
need a break.

SHOCKED!

2010-12-16T12:17:00.002+08:00

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/got_service_or_not/511842/rude_china_bus_driver_laughs_loudly_at_passengers_who_missed.html

see this.
and look at the comments
horrible!

i cant believe that those are written by Singaporeans. whats wrong with my nation's citizens??

Just basing on a stomp by some random people, most of them started blaming PRC and other foreigners for migrating or even working in Spore!

whats wrong with them!?

if they don't wish to have so many foreign workers, just give birth to more and increase the number of Sporeans! not badmouthing others when in fact you have no choice but to hire them, cause no one else in that nation is willing to take up that dirty job.

Trust me, there's seriously a huge problem with their mindset. They are plainly blaming everything on foreigners and not doing much to help. If they think that all Singaporeans are clever and hard working, go create something that can replace all the foreigners and dominate this bloody world.

Freaking embarrassed to be a Singaporean now.

japan in korea

2010-12-15T16:08:00.000+08:00

Having sakae at some newly open japanese restaurant yesterday night. Hehe

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2010-12-15T12:25:00.001+08:00

Some day, around e streets, there is so many bears walking around. It really seems like they are on riot. Extremely spectacular. They came by too suddenly and in a blink of eyes, gone. Wth. So i only managed to take such a lousy photo.

Preparation for xmas

2010-12-15T11:29:00.001+08:00

E art department of our school is preparing all this statues for xmas. Really pretty isn't it? I like that huge ice cream at e back. 2days ago, i saw a santa claus. But didn take photo. This picture is took 1week ago. So, hehe

2010-12-10T11:29:00.001+08:00

ㅠ.ㅠ
whats wrong with me today? keep doing something wrong. too sleepy mode. zzz. need to wake up, so i fall asleep, but still, not helping..
still sleepy~
still doing the wrong things~
need to study!!!

1st snow

2010-12-09T10:18:00.001+08:00

See that? Snow covered e field. I heard it snows Yesterday at 4am. Cry. A little too late to see. Today im late again. Cry. This whole week im late. I must sleep early tonight and ends e week well.

Its snowing!

2010-12-08T09:23:00.001+08:00

Cry. This is not e snow photo, but its really snowing today, according to my seniors. From kst 8am till 10am. Me, just reach at 10am, missed e 1st snow. Cry. Very sad. Ultra sad. Must hide in a corner and cry~  I wan eat snow...

멍~

2010-12-04T13:10:00.002+08:00

im so into studying recently and ignore all other earthly things. walk like a zombie, very slow~ eat without talking, always staring into the air. literally 멍.

last night i dreamed of snow! snow snow!! i thought, its gonna snow today. so i woke up eagerly, and get out of my room, to see the scenery. =.='' what a disappointment. all i saw was fallen leaves and withered trees. no flakes, no snow. =(

seoul is snowing, when is our turn!?

recently, i decided not to travel to seoul so frequently as it waste my money. i wanted to travel around gwangju and visit all places here. i checked that its mostly exhibition centre, or art house, or temple. zzz. still, i wanted to look around. have you ever see a korea temple? i wonder how does it looks like? i heard its mostly buddhist.. need to explore and find some tea plantation for souvenirs.

LOTTE WORLD

2010-12-03T10:28:00.002+08:00

tired.

went lotte world, in seoul, yesterday. travelled a 3.5hr bus ride through and flow. reached at 4pm, eat early dinner, shopped at uniqlo for merino wool black Tee and few socks. went in at 6pm.

walked around, bought myself a cute rabbit ear hairband, perfect for xmas.

played all sorts of things that u can see in the TV, variety show and so much more.

bumper car for warm up
french revolution (rollar coaster type, but shorter course)
gyro drop (those that bring u high up in the air and drop u down out of a sudden, SHIOK! and it drops me when i was pointing on some boat ride, telling bu i wanted to ride that later.. =.='' it drops with right hand holding to the seat, and left hand in the air pointing at the boat.!! totally stunned. and we get down, we are all laughing.. fun.)
bungee drop (similar, but more scary, cause it keeps moving up and down, and u dont know when its going which direction at extremely high speed. when you thought that its gonna stop, cause its reaching the ground, and you had let your guts down, it SHOOTS UP AGAIN! scary~)
gyro swing (the scariest one for me. its like the one in clarke quay, rather than a simple swing, its like a UFO, it rotates and swing at the same time. and i heard it swings up to 97 degree. at that highest point, i couldnt see anything other than the sky or the river below us.. seems like the scene before fainting. horrible!)
alantis ( my favourite, sounds really scary as it goes faster than a rollar coaster and higher. but its totally fun, maybe because i sit on the 2nd row, bu sitting in front of me, seeing the cliff before falling. thats much more scary, i think i cant handle that. and bcoz its closing time, no1 queuing and we said again, bu actually doesnt wan, but the staff says again, dont waste time. haha. great! at the 2nd round, i wasnt afraid at all. almost letting go both of my hands at all time, but never on the way down the slope. :P

after all the horrifying rides, almost all rides closes, and we went back to the indoor amusement park, had merry-go-round and went home. reach at 2.30am. slept at 3.30am. woke up at 8 ++. tired.

PS: pictures uploaded at fb, asap

you

Production..

No confidence

After exams

After exams

Busy hols

Hall is filled w mysteries and surprises

梁雯意最近神经失调。

Due to one pear

精神支柱

ACP interview

SICK~ =(

Sprain after 3weeks

Home

Sad uni life

Durian hiking

Rubbish shit

Awesome sentosa

Nueve'7

Touring spore

SM town in paris

My condolences

Weird world, lousy peiple

im a troublesome kid

Whats wrong with singaporeans?

Friends That are not meant to be

Overseas

Rose?

Saw that? Bye spore. .

1st trip to barrage

My 1st packed lunch

Flower blooming

time to let go

My noodle

Gardening

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Mrt train resting

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my life

1st singapore food

what i miss doing in korea.

who, you or me?

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cancerians

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Friend..

mum's joke

Meaning of valentine day

FUCK!

Final party

change in plan

rush hour

depress

CNY GOODIES

confuse

bu's in singapore

i miss singapore

what is your definition of life?

guilty

first time tuning guitar

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menstrual cramp

난 머르겠엉어요

asus

NEW LAPPY!

雪

Snowman!

drinking week~

lappy funeral

*sign*

SHOCKED!

japan in korea

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Preparation for xmas

1st snow

Its snowing!

멍~

LOTTE WORLD

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